In the dark....

Some moments are foreign to me, outside of myself

Cannot convey with emotions or feelings... it is non-descriptive, well at least not with one word

Not joy, not pain, intense, fear, love, hate...just silence

A void, a space where smiles should be

A part of me is missing

I find it impossible to keep my eyes closed

that is when the devil visits me

That is where peace should be

When I open my eyes I feel an emptiness

I put in my earphones wanting for love to fill my head

all the lyrics feel wrong, just space, then just words I wish I wrote

I lay here and wonder if God is listening or just tired of the same prayers

I ask, am I be cursed, to feel so deeply?

I can use all the words to describe what is missing

but not what is here in front of me

As I form words nothing spills from my mouth

I can see them in my head moving through a tunnel

I go to write and I nothing is making sense

There in that tunnel is a light, I can see it but seem to never reach it

I am tired of walking towards it

I guess I better start running ! I am good at that...