I was cleaning and found some songs that my BFF from high school and I wrote. Even many moons ago music was in my heart and I thought one day Mary J. or Mariah would sing one of my songs... so I wanted to share one of them I am not sure of the exact year but I was about 17 when I wrote this (I think) and I used the word I or I'll many times, even then I thought I could be superwoman in a relationship...

It’s been so long since I’ve been touched by love

I’ve forgotten what it’s caress feels like

All I know is when I rest my head and go to sleep at night

It is you I see behind my eyes

Everything happened so fast, the way I feel for you

Once you walked through the door I knew that what I felt was new

You made me shudder with no touch

I went crazy wanting you so much

No mans made me feel so sure, I know I want just what you’ve got

Baby the ball is in your court so please don’t miss this shot

We’d be so good together, no one can give you what I’ve got

We’d be so good together, I’ll love you from now and never stop

We’d be so good together, I’ll take away all of your fears

We’d be so good together, my loves so good It’ll bring you to tears

We’d be so good...

From one day to the next is filled with visions of you

I just wish that those dreams where reality of us two 

You can tell me anything and whisper all your fantasies

We can do everything, I’ll fulfill all your hopes and dreams

Just tell me where it hurts and I’ll kiss it

If your hearts been broken I’ll put it back together I’ll fix it

Your more than what I want, you’re what I need and so much more

My hearts been through so much pain It’s time it got picked up off the floor

We’d be so good together, no one can give you what I’ve got

We’d be so good together, I’ll love you from now and never stop

We’d be so good together, I’ll take away all of your fears

We’d be so good together, my loves so good It’ll bring you to tears

We’d be so good...

Lately when I’m breathing out comes your name

Since your fresh air blew in my life things just haven’t been the same

I never thought I’d find all I want in one man but I’ve found them in you

Just tell me what you want cause I know that I want you 

I want you to just tell me you want me too

cause we’d...

...be so good together, no one can give you what I’ve got

We’d be so good together, I’ll love you from now and never stop

We’d be so good together, I’ll take away all of your fears

We’d be so good together, my loves so good It’ll bring you to tears

We’d be so good...

Today is the 23rd and I felt like writing but couldn't think of what I wanted to write so I picked 23 things people do not know about me... 

I am seriously a hopeless romantic.  Sappy love stories make me smile on the inside even if I look hard on the outside.

 I opened my car door and hit the car next to me by mistake and left a small mark...four days ago, and I am pretty sure I said “hello” to the woman whose car it was as she left the post office.

 When I say something, then walk away and hear laughing, I think people are laughing at me.

 There are people I am only nice to because I do not want to be alone.

 I do not like stupid conversations with stupid people.  It makes me extremely angry.

 I have been so exhausted in the morning that I secretly wish I would fall just so I do not have to keep running during PT (Phsyical Training for you civilians).

 I feel ashamed when I drink alcohol around my daughter, for some reason I feel like she is judging me.

 Sometimes when I am making lunch for myself, I do not want to because I do not feel like making lunch for anyone else.

 I am terrified that having a baby will change my marriage.

 I do not feel good about being part of a process that changes the future of a soldier forever.

 I HATE going to baby showers (I love you moms).

 If people around me are not happy it has a profound effect on me.

 I love little people so much because they are brutally honest and adult are usually liars.

 In some ways I feel like when Rev Williams spoke the words to us, “you will never be blessed”, it worked.

 I am so competitive at times I do not care who loses.

 I do not think my husband likes doing photo shoots with me.

 I have started about five books and haven’t finished reading any of them.

 I want to write music.

 I care about what happens to people, even if I cannot stand them.

 I think that people that post on Facebook, Twitter or any form of social media all day long are extremely annoying.

 I wish I had given birth to Mecca Gordon.

I have so many clothes that I look at pictures and do not know where  certain items are or even remember having them.

I am terrified about starting over again...

How have I gone this long...I have missed being in this space!

I have thought about what I want to say and it has overwhelmed my brain for so long that  instead of something, I did nothing

I will never leave you again

My words found a home here and I abandoned it, left it without an occupant, vacant

I have instead filled my head and heart with it's contents and I need to release

I can't sleep and the words are filling up in me

They come in the form of love, pain, anger, relief...peace

Today I will start over, share a part of me and try to spread a little love in between

I will be me and no one else...ready, set, GO!